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Monday, November 17, 2008
I wish I could get myself hypnotized. Hence, I am able to stay in a state of utter delusion. What a beautiful mess! This post has no absolute intention, random and not in any order. It’s just fragments by fragments of thoughts that fill up every nook and cranes of my mind. I am happy, sad, weary, and miss a couple of I shall say significant people in my life. Yes, my uncle is one of them. I am happy because efforts are paying off and I believe coming under 1 hour 10 minutes for the 10km or lesser to about an hour is no longer an impossible feat. Achieving 55kg is just a stone throw away which would then drive me to diminish another 5 kilo’s off the scale. That would then be the final leg of the “weight-race.” I am sad, well, let’s not talk about it. I am not weary physically but mentally. It’s not as if I have tons of problems. It’s just that I have been thinking a lot lately. About the frailty of life, parent’s expectations, responsibilities and basically what I really want to have and achieve. Like I have said and would say again, I hate uncertainties. If something that does not give me a guarantee or a plausible outcome, I’d tend to lose faith. That, is not good news my people. When faith is already not there, nothing said could change it. I admit I am egoistical too. If some of you feel slighted that I have not been updating much of myself (catch up/get together) and much less of what I seem to be where I talk hazily which seem that I don’t give a damn/don’t care yada yada, it’s just the current evolution of me. Oh, if you feel that you are running out of time or something have struck a realization in you, quick put yourself into action! And yes, I can’t wait for this year to come to an end. Start a whole new hopefully better year ahead-start travelling round the world (well, Asia first. Where I got so much money) on my own, integrate into enhancing less fortunate/special children’s life, participate in women races and get active in school by being hands on in SHL stuffs.That’s not a mouthful right? I think I may have used some words and phrases inappropriately. Gasak-lah! (:
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