This is it; as ambiguous as it gets.

Wednesday, March 4, 2009

Let’s be frank down here. After all, this time, I do not want to do injustice to myself. When I read my entries from my Live journal; I feel irksome. I made a mistake, an uncalled for rash decision. A bad decision, stupid you name it. Decisions I pretty much know I am going to regret. But...still. Something inside me decides to do a crazy thing. A thing I know will probably turn around and bite me in the ass. Yet, I do it anyway. I do not like to be teased with that matter as a matter of fact. Yes, I may end giving a faint smile. I can’t blame those people; I myself after all am taken aback by saying yes. Damn it. It’s over, I have moved on since. I am a lot happier but am put off when someone blows foul air about it. And yes, double damn it, I missed a chance of a life time- a what could have been.

Today, I stepped into a Veterinary. Really cool though except for the constant whining of cats. I like the Doctors and Nurses uniform (by chance do they have different terms for doctor and nurse in a vet?)Or the uniform is called scrubs just like they used that term in Grey’s Anatomy? I do not know and I can’t be bothered to find out. Oh, oh the print on the uniform is really cute; baby elephants, giraffes and hippos. I feel like having one and make it as pyjamas at night. Ha-ha. What I am doing there by the way? That pet rabbit broke one of its nails and the bleeding did not stop. I do not know what the hell my little brother did to it because both of them love to do co-ordinated stunts together.

I am being offered to lead camps and expeditions in the heartland jungles of Malaysia. The first one would be in the middle of this month. Should I stay or should I go? The sound of Malaysia does not make me comfortable. ):

Kaki aku dah baik! Yeah yeah! Tak payah jumpa Dr Rodney lagi!