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Monday, June 1, 2009
Let’s get mauled by the horrendous fact of life.
She was in a state of utter mess. One thing was made clear that night. The feeling was literally eating her heart our alive; she was taunted by her dad remarks. An enormous amount of calls and text messages were received. She just simply chucked her phone inside the car and walked off. Egoistical, yes, that was it. Off she go – outpatient; needless to say she feels that it wasn’t at all important. “You know that you are simply complacent. You tend to be satisfied with things so instantaneously. You accept things readily; you do not fight back with things that you are not happy with. You keep those bitter feelings to yourself; channeling it out on the wrong people or simply being rebellious in the stupidest way. That wasn’t supposed to be the way girl. Look at now, this feels shit right? I know effort and sweat was spent a lot on this. You think I didn’t know what you are doing other than knowing you being in school and seeing you sometimes at home or we barely even meet face to face, not until I came back home from sending your mom to work and you are all ready to go back to school again. Were you even mentally prepared for this, yes physically you thought you are since abang kaz and you successfully completed those 2 dry runs. I know you told your mom that I was always being a wet blanket; I did not always give you what you want but instead made you work hard for it. I do not want you to have the mindset that things come easy; and even if it requires hard work, it would not also go as planned. That is just how it is. I want you to be able to pick up the pieces when you fall. Don’t always spend time helping others, give yourself a break...” said her dad. That phobia seeps in. It is like the other time when she was donating blood for the fifth time and she zonked out for a good 10 whole minutes. That phobia, yet she have not even safely declared it; she is beginning to be reluctant in doing so. Would she consider on saving another 3 lives again? Wait, what about hers? I think she totally sucks. Come on, you can do better than this. You are degenerating yourself into the hole beyond the holey holes. Get a grip; don’t make it look so pathetic! -Because you are just not. Well, maybe you are. Maybe you just should stick to what you do best.1:18. Not, 1:40?? Oh, of what significance???
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