This is it; as ambiguous as it gets.

Monday, July 6, 2009

I don't want to end up watching chances fade.

I am a dreamer, waiting for the sun. When you’re coming in, I know my life’s begun. You know that all my life I’ve been waiting, waiting for some, someone like you to love me.

That glistening look in his eyes when my brother talks to me about her, I know, she meant the whole world to him. On the other side, from reading her blog and as a woman, I know too that he meant the whole world to her. -Truly, madly and deeply. Now, there is another important woman in his life now. Not just the two of us -my mum and me. Even, helping him to get the birthday gift for her last Sunday, I could sense it was serious business. I had to be the one “model-ing” it and try on those watches. She is lucky I thought, he is not the type who spent hundreds especially on a girl. That scrooge!

For every piece of me that wants you, another piece backs away.

Can you imagine my smallest brother, asking me when I am going to get myself a boyfriend? And from the tone, it sounds as if I am a very picky person. Well, I am waiting for serendipity to strike me.-Being with the right person at the right time and basically all for the right reasons for us to be together in a relationship. I want that person to embrace me for who I am my flaws, my laughter and all of my awkward antics. I don’t want him to be with me just because I make a good listener, just because I understand him. It has to be a two way thing which I felt is an important aspect for me and especially so, I want to have that nice warmth fuzzy feeling inside. There is no need for the open I love you declarations here and there, just knowing it is ample.

I am getting the point now as to why some couples decide to settle down all of a sudden. Perhaps, they feel this is it. I think, I am in no position to scrutinise their decisions as after all I am not in the relationship to actually judge. -Because, it is deep baby.